I have a thousand things in my head and I was determined to type it all out in here a few minutes ago. But as usual, like some sort of a brain freeze, everything was clogged and I can't think of any right now. Haha.

Oh well first of all, I am so happy right now! Jubilant, elated, contented or whatever "happy" word in thesaurus they have. It is so nice to have a man to talk to every now and then. I webcam Juan Carlos often and it is sooo nice to hear his voice. Well, are we a couple? Nope. I mean he's in the states and I'm in Singapore. However, I don't mind having him as my boyfriend if we're closer.

"American? Seems like local people doesn't meet your so-called classy reputation". *Rolls eyes* Hello? I hate that sarcasm ,[so-called classy reputation] because in the first place I'm no paris hilton that heir a thousand of Hilton hotels worldwide. I'm not super duper rich. I'm not the daughter of the President and Bill Clinton isn't my father. He's a Latino by the way.

Local people? Let me get this straight. How am I suppose to be interested in them when they have none towards me? I've seen a lot, I've been through this sort of shit a lot. Well of course I've known many local guys but they just couldn't seem to STICK with me. So, don't blame me. C'mon, you don't call a few months I-love-you-love-me drama a relationship. Let's just say, I've never been in a relationship.

Okay. In my posts, have you ever seen me typing things like "I went out with my baby to the movies and had so much fun poking each others' ribcage." Never. That is because I never had a boyfriend. Virtual yes - Daniel Agger. :D

So anyway, I'm 18 and I have the rights to fall in love. But I doubt I will be getting in any relationship right now. Because I still think that it isn't the right age where I should be engage in anything like this because I don't believe in the physical contact with the opposite sex.

But, I pray to God to make Juan and me meet up one day. A man like him is hard to find nowadays. He's not all touchy-touchy, he's not stupid, not selfish, not silly, not dumb, never feel awkward to start a conversation and he belief in the same faith as me, Islam. He's a catholic but way before I know him, he always wanted to be a Muslim. Alhamdulilah. Oh my one and only Lord, Allah, please show him the way.

So anyway, family and I will be going to Batam for a holiday trip! YAY! Shopping, shopping & shopping!!! *Dances* It will be on 15,16,17 December. Well, tidak ada rezeki untuk pergi Sweden jumpa Om. :( Batam pun jadilah. Ok what's with these really bahasa baku. Okay, I'm practicing perfect Malay which many of us don't practice verbally or even write that way in blog.

At Batam, I'm planning to go for a spa, do my nails, pamper my body and all the needs. I need new clothes mainly dresses. Also shorts and tops. Tsk. I speak as if I have a large sum of money with me right now.

TALK ABOUT MONEY, I'm going to receive the Merit Bursary award again. :) $250. Of course, due to my academic performance in school.

Oh, I've been waking up real early like... 9 in the morning. The latest would be 9:30 am. And I turned in early as well. Why? These sleeping disorder I used to practice was making me breakout. Pimples, pimples & pimples. So, as you know, I won't compromise my appearance with anything. :D For the sake of it, I am willing to wake up early in the morning and sometimes help with the house chores. *halo on head*

Sometimes I wonder if anyone even read my blog. Hahahaha. Oh well.

Oh my God, my toe bled when I woke up just now. Yes, the old-woes-on-my-sickening-toe thing. :( I can't wear covered high heels, I can't kick the ball so hard and I can't even jump and land so hard or it will hurt. DAMN IT WHEN IS IT GONNA CURE?!

[Ooooh. Juan just msn-ed me saying he couldnt sleep because... :D] Well, he went off initially to go to bed but now he's on mobile.

Oh yeah I'm dying to get a PINK STRAPPY HEELS. PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE. :( Well, I can't wear those that cover my toenails because it's gonna hurt. But here are some photos of the heels I'm in love with.

Oh. My. God. This is sooo ME. Wedges!

I dig the bling-bling butterfly!

Victoria Beckham wore this.[Whatever] & I totally dig it! Okay it covers a little of the toe but maybe if it's not tight I can still bear it.

Okay this is the kind I can't wear. I have pink ones like this only a little shorter[heels]. But :( I would love to wear it without leaving my toe burst into blood or blisters on my feet.

Also, I can't wait till the day Abah give me his current new mobile phone. It's LG and the most important thing is that it's... PINK!!! :D Well, he better give me that soon or... Haha.

What's the sudden craze for pink? Well, I've always like pink when I was young and then started to hate pink because I thought I was hardcore haha. And then I started to like pink again. No. LOVE PINK. LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

If, God willing, I get to go M.I, Abah is going to buy me my own personal laptop. So, whatever it is, I want it to be pink. Of course I would appreciate if it's VAIO or something. Hehehehe.



I guess I talked too much.

Adios
xoxo