Wednesday, October 31, 20077:35 AM
I was pissed yesterday night when I was
still studying my math. To whoever the hell you are you cowardy coward, did you know that your're... STUPID? Anonymously Ryan went ''How come my pictures are not in ur blog anymore? tsk tsk. girls ...'' So, you're trying to tell me that you own this blog and was wondering why I remove the shit outta my blog? Listen, it's to see if YOU websms or not. and you did. So I play pretend. ''You're not dead. LIAR. wow. high tech fucking ghost'' to see what you're gonna say. And you went ''I have no idea what you're talking about''. Oooooooh. So now, if you're really ryan, you don't know that you're dead? and... yeah, taking your own sweet time you switch on the computer and websms me. Hoho. How fun. Good movie. So I said ''Whatever. Go away''. Not because Im petrified of you. Hell no. Im studying. and I have better things to do than entertaining frog-headed lil kid. And you replied ''To be honest, I'm not ryan. Good luck in your life you fucking bitch. sweet talker mother fucker.'' Lol. You seriously couldnt seem to distinguish between a bitch and a lady. Bitch = female's dog = your momma Understood? And oh, mother fucker? Sorry, I'm straight. So did I fought back? Neahs. I said ''YAWN.'' yeah. and ends the stupid convo. See how dumb a person can be. Sorry sister, I cursed in my blog. Anyway, at least someone never fails to cheer me up and make me smilllllleeeee. Love today. Love today. Adriel. Now I'm back for more. |
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Tuesday, October 30, 20079:10 AM
Thanks Alyn.
For everything. Lots of LOVE. HUGS. |
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Fake foe
Monday, October 29, 20077:40 AM
I know what you guys are thinking.
''Fickled minded isn't she''. Yeah yeah. I never thought I would be in this condition again. Thank you. Thank you. Anyway, some STUPID physcopath has been harrassing me. Stupid. You stupid Ryan wannabe. Don't you make fun of someone who's dead. Get a LIFE will you? I love cursing this kind of people. And I mean curse. Whoever you are, hope you get struck by lightning tomorrow. Because you're annoying and caustic. You annoyed my friends and me. Blah. ''Never will be tired thinking of you. It's all I can do now anyway :)'' |
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Saturday, October 27, 20078:40 AM
Went to English Remedial.
Adriel makes my day. =) <3 cloud 4234234235234234232 gazillion. lol. k shut up. |
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Friday, October 26, 200711:03 AM
Taken just now. Went to kakak zai's workplace to help umi send food there. Umi cook for some event or something. Umi, the greatest cook on earth. I mean, I've ever known. Lol. Okay. Something is really, really wrong with my stomach. Ever had gastric? To those who doesn't, gastric is like when you're not eating and then your stomach is like being stab a lot of times by a sharp, sharp object. But the weird thing is... I EAT A LOT. Okay, some friends are worried I didnt eat much because of what had happened the past few days/weeks. But for me, it's different. When I'm upset, I tend to eat alot. Oh well, was on the phone with Amenda. Haha. Some people are... okay I don't know what to say. My stomach hurts thinking about it. Haha. Geography paper was... okay. Gonna kentot habis2 for math and english. Must do very well now yaw. Okay. Hikmah 3 on. |
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Three times
Thursday, October 25, 20079:58 AM
I don't mind killing Albert Einstein
once more. Chemistry paper was a killer. I hate it. But, pray hard now people. Suddenly, I miss Ryan soooo much. I've always miss him. A lot. Sayang, I'm crying now okay. I love you. I still do. A lot. But you're not coming back. What should I do, sayang? What? I'll see you after I'm dead. Some frog is pretending to be you. Let's pray hard that, that ayam will get struck by lightning. People thought this is a joke. Stupid. Someone said ''There are more guys out there'' NOW I HATE IT WHEN SOMEONE SAYS THAT TO ME. Everyone in different language speaking world knows there are more guys out there. But, does anyone knows how much Ryan mean to me? Do you? Do you? Do y-o-u? I shall not deny the fact that I envy those with special boyfriend. I too, shall not deny the fact that I still love Ryan. Ryan, COME BACK PLEASE!!! I know it's impossible. I know. I know. I know. I accepted the fact that he's gone. I never blame God for what had happened. But, I'm not over it. Doubt I'll ever get over it. Aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tahu. Meski kau takkan pernah tahu. Aku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun Aku mencintaimu sedalam dalam hatiku. Ryan, you're my heart. My soul. My light. My life. My everything. My breath says out your name. My heart beats for you. I never get to see you for one last time. God knows how much it hurts. I never get to talk to you. I never get to kiss you. I never get to hug you. I never get to laugh with you. I never get to cry with you. I never get to hold your hands. For the last time. For the last time. For the last time. You may not be here with me, but you'll always, and always and forever will be locked in my heart. You're sentenced to life imprisonment in my heart. Every birth in this world is as much as I love you. Even more. Sorry but, no one can replace Ryan. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. |
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Wednesday, October 24, 200710:12 AM
Tomorrow's science paper.
And just a few seconds ago some stupid pervert guy asked if he could have sex with me. Seriously, I look that cheap? Sighs. I ain't promiscuous now yaw. Studied with amenda, cerwin and firdaus yesterday. They accompanied me to marsiling. Had to meet Yana. She passed me some memories from Ryan. A load pics of me. One of his. A stack of our history conversation. And some money. I love Ryan. Makes me cry just browsing through the old notes. ''If there's one memory I don't wanna lose that time at the mall you and me in the dressing room'' Guess some of you must've noticed why my posts are super plain these days a.k.a no photographs. May be uploading them here after my O levels which is... 6 November. Hah. Someone told me ''Get another friendster account!'' Should I? Nah... I've been cracking my brain studying chemistry. Have yet to study physics. Oh damn. To that Ruz-Hater here's for you: I couldn't give a damn what you say to me I don't really care what you think of me There's nothing you could say that would hurt me. =) |
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Keberantakan
Monday, October 22, 200711:43 AM
Anyone read Berita Minggu?
I mean, Malay newpaper. Page 7 I think. Just to pour my thoughts and opinion. Like, nowadays more and more young anak melayu owning bikes and stuffs. Since January this year to june, 40 anak melayu muda died in an accident. Motorcycle. I agreed on what the author was saying. ''Don't encourage your children to own a bike''. Yeah. It's a waste. At a very young age died just like that. Plus, I wonder they bawak anak dara orang. Bawak macam pelesit. If anything happens, cacat nanti tak laku. How? To Alyn girlfriend, be careful okay? I love you. Okay, so any reason to hate me? I mean, look at the tag. If you think it brings me down, think again and again. Because I know you don't know me. No one knows me that well but my family. Impossible to be any of my family members to tag me like that. Haha. Because, we learn not to talk cock. Haha. Going to school tomorrow. Revise chemistry with amenda, firdaus and cerwin. I miss Ryan. Aku kangen ama loh. Kangen sekali. |
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I'm sane.
Saturday, October 20, 20073:41 PM
No. I'm not insane.
I'm sane. I'm sorry if you caught me talking to myself. I was hoping for him to hear what I gotta say. Sounds insane? I know, right? But you don't tell me you know how I feel. Because I know you know nothing. Yes, I know you guys are trying to make me feel better by saying things like ''I know how you feel.'' or ''I understand how you feel''. Think that works? My ass. Because I know you don't go through the same shyte as me. Sorry, I appreciate your concern but DON'T LIE. Don't treat me different. I am still Ruz. Tell me who's gonna jump around and sing ''yipee yayaya yipee yipee yaa~!'' after your boyfriend/girlfriend died? You probably. Think it's easy to get over it? Huh? Please. I don't need extra attention from anyone. At all. Sounds arrogant? Sorry but Im just stating what I feel these days. Sick. and tired. I don't need extra attention or concern from any guy. At all. Don't go lovey dovey to me. I'm sorry. But I'm disgusted. I can distinguish between being concern and worried AND gatal and ulat bulu naik daun. Sorry aye. You can take that old, lame tactic of yours and pour it on little juvenile girls. I don't want to be mushy mushy with any guys. At all. Sorry. Who cares if you're _____. So, stop telling me that you adore me or whatever. I hate it. HATE it. I hate liars. WHO LIED FOR THE SAKE OF ATTENTION. Think I would even give a speck of attention to someone like YOU? Dream on, puppy. Maybe some other girls. But not me. That's a precise. Don't lie but I know that some of you people will go like ''Move on, you cry baby. He's gone. MOVE ON SUCKER!!!'' Uh-huh. Move on eh? Come tell me that in my face and you wished you should have move on before I crack open your skull. Easy for you to say. Stupid. I appreciate all of your concern. Especially girls. No. Don't get me wrong. Girls like my sister, kathy, niq, amenda, nadia, alyn, syq, dinah... and those who tagged. Thank you. Rae, nissy ... But, please, don't be petrified to confront me and say ''hello''. I won't bite your balls or anything. But if you're under the ulat bulu category I'm sorry but Goodbye. For the universe info, I still love Ryan. I miss him. A lot. |
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Thursday, October 18, 20073:20 AM
Sayang... If you're listening, I'm still not over it. I remember you telling me to move on if anything happens. I may be moving on, but I'm not over it. I won't be able to fufill your wishes ; I won't find any replacement as I only have you placed, locked in my heart, soul and mind.
The tragic event has made me realised that... small or big arguements between lovers are childish. Why fight when both are still alive and healthy? Why being all ego and not forgiving? Why sulk and not talking? Cherish every moment with your loved ones. I'm not trying to preach. Just, listen. I miss you so much. I miss your laughter. I miss your smile. I miss seeing you angry when I refuse to eat. I miss listening to your voice. I miss you telling me to sleep early. I miss you telling me to revise. I miss you telling me how much you love me. I miss you calling me a pig. I miss you being sulk. I miss you being angry. I miss you being mad at me. I miss you telling me how you can't wait to come back to Singapore. I miss you telling me you'll be going to school with me next year. I miss you telling me that you'll be there for me. I miss everything about you. I'm sorry, guys. And I MEAN GUYS. Not girls. Guys. Don't try to win my heart as I won't fall for it. Unless, you're Ryan Jared. The Ryan I love. Which is... impossible. For those who are lost and don't know what the hell I'm blabbering about. Here's a news. I'm not going all stupid sad because of break ups. That is stupid to me now. This isnt about any typical boy-girl relationship. Ryan Jared has passed away and I'm not the least proud of it. Muslims, recite some prayers for him. Moga rohnya dicucuri Rahmat. Amin. Al-Fatihah. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ waktu terasa semakin berlalu tinggalkan cerita tentang kita atau tiada lg kini tawamuu tuk hapuskan semua setitis hati ada cerita tentang aku dan dia dari kita bersama saat dulu kala ada cerita tentang masa yang indah saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa teringat disaaat kita ketartawa bersama ceritakan suma tentang kita ada cerita tentang aku dan dia dari kita bersama saat dulu kala ada cerita tentang masa yang indah saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa |
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Wednesday, October 17, 20076:29 AM
Why do you have to go now? Why do you have to leave me and never come back? Why do you have to go somewhere you'll never come back. Why do you have to go at a very young age.
Remember when we said we will be going to the same school next year? And that you will send me and fetch me from school. The first person you would wanna meet is umi because she seems like a cool mom. You said you would come and meet my parents to let them know that we're together. You said we're gonna be wearing white on the next hari raya. We're gonna get married at the age of 23. We're gonna live together. Happily ever after. But now you're gone. Somewhere you're not coming back. I won't stop loving you. I promise. I can still feel you in my life. I almost thought that you'll be online and... talk to me. I know that will never happen. You're gone. Somewhere out of this world. Somewhere no one can bring you back. I love you. RYAN O'COLLONER STEVEN JARED Muhammad Syakirin 1989-2007 I miss you I miss you so bad I don't forget you Oh, it's so sad I hope you can hear me 'cause I remember it clearly The day you slipped away was the day I found it won't be the same I didnt get around to kiss you or goodbye on the hand I wish that I could see you again I know that I can't I had my wake up won't you wake up? I keep asking why. And I can't take it it wasn't fake it It happened you passed by Now you're gone Now you're gone There you go there you go SOMWHERE I CAN'T BRING YOU BACK Now you're gone Now you're gone There you go there you go SOMEWHERE YOU'RE NOT COMING BACK |
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Saturday, October 13, 20072:50 PM
![]() Yay. Kakak zai bought for me Paris Hilton Heiress perfume. Advanced birthday gift. Saw KAK MAZ a.k.a MISSMAZ . From habbo/friendster. Ah, she actually recognised me. Our first reaction was like ''=O''. Haha. Then ''EH RUUZZ!!!'' ''EH MAZZZ!!!'' . Haha. Actually saw a lot of online friends. Some of them I dont know. But they know me. So Im like ''Oh hello''. Padehal tak kenal. Umi was like ''Aik... Belom jadi artis.'' Haha. Lalala. No, I didnt say anything. Hah. Saw girlfriend, alyn too. =) EH. AKU TADI DARAH UP GEDABAK PUNYAAAAAA. AKU TEMPAH BAJU KAT JOHOR SEBELOM RAYE, BELOM SIAAAAAAAP!!! NYONYA BODOH BODOH BODOH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO IM LIKE NOT REALLY IN THE MOOD NAK RAYE HAPPY2. THATS WHY TADI AKU GI GEYLANG BELI BAJU. WASTE MY TIME MAN. WASTE MY TIME!!!! *SEPAK SEPAK KEPALE NYONYA''. BYE AH. SALAM LEBARAN KEPADA SEMUA YANG TELAH BERPUASA SAHAJA. |
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Extreme Makeover
Friday, October 12, 20074:45 AM
Mentang2 nk raye... lagu pon tukar. From Radja anyway. Indonesia band to those who don't know. Sorry if the song is a total contra to my post [Rihanna's ___ pose. Lol]
![]() ![]() ![]() We were talking about hairstyles. I mean, my friends and I. So, they agreed short hair suits my face. So, I was thinking ... I want Rihanna's hairstyle and Avril's blond hair COLOUR. Just like Rihanna's but blond. And then with purple and pink streaks with red ends. I told my parents I wanna dye my hair with that colour and they don't mind but Umi is sooo gonna scream if I cut my hair that short. Anyway, Rihanna's hair is not concave, right? If it is, then forget it. I hate concaves minahreps. Lol. But, yeah it's not. Oh, I'll see about it after Os. Yeah. I wanna grow taller. Im sixteen and I'm only 1.7m. =/ I wanna reach 1.8m. I don't like it when anyone laughs at something I find the least funny. |
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Thursday, October 11, 20078:02 AM
![]() Yay. Abah got us a shisha. Its ours, OURS!!! muahahaha. We smoke like there's no tomorrow yesterday night. yay. Okay. Yay. I'm okay now. Sorry for the so-down-mood I had. Nilam and me are on good terms now. English was okay. Haha. Mr Tham was talking with a few of us while waiting for the whole class to come. And, he showed us the compo topic that he would love it if we do them. and then he made fun of the topic dancing which we found it way hilarious. And, he mentioned the topic ''girls'' and i was like ''I LOVE GIRLS'' haha. And we laughed about it. Okay. I think someone is... ok whatever. Take care all. Lebaran bakal muncul! |
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Wednesday, October 10, 20076:04 AM
If there's one thing I would love to kill about you is that you just couldnt shut ur mouth. Hey, 2 words is all im asking for ''SHUT.UP.''.
Mind your own business. Stop annoying me with your incessent squeaky voice. It's way too annoying. You sound just like a mosquito flying around my ears. What's your problem? What Im about to say is mean but whatever. What makes you think you can comment on stuff which requires sense of fashion? Just LOOK at you. Okay. You just continue with your little conversation about that just so I could hear and know what might happen next, which, you know I despised a lot. Ooooh. ''She's the BEST!'' is all you could say. You dumb. You know nothing about this so shut the hell up. Shut up. Just SHUT YOUR MOUTH. I bet all your friends can't stand your retarded ignorance behaviour. I could see from their faces. But you're blind now yaw. They smiled when I made funny faces at you. Haha. Stupid, naive and gullible. Tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk. You might be thinking that I'm the only one who hates you. Oh well, I'm the only one who actually tells you that I hate you. Talking trash about me. What do you think that makes me feel? I felt funny. I'm not the least hurt about what rumours you're telling them about me. Because I know all the trash u claimed about me are total manure. Oh well, why couldn't you just say it in my face? SAY IT IN MY FACE. Told ya in your face that you're annoying and you pretended you heard nothing. If you're going way beyond my limits, i'll make sure hurt+sad expression is manifested in your face. |
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Tuesday, October 9, 200710:24 AM
I'm not deleting my blog.
I deleted my friendster. And gosh, it hurts so much I cried the moment i deleted it. ='( Oh well. I'm ashamed of myself. I'm ashamed to you, Oh God. This song really, really, really makes me feel closer to God. Kusadari akhirnya Kerapuhan imanku Telah membawa jiwa dan ragaku Ke dalam dunia yang tak tentu arah Kusadari akhirnya Kau tiada duanya Tempat memohon beraneka pinta Tempat berlindung dari segala mara bahaya Oh Tuhan, mohon ampun Atas dosa dan dosa selama ini Aku tak menjalankan perintah-Mu Tak perdulikan nama-Mu Tenggelam melupakan diri-Mu Oh Tuhan mohon ampun Atas dosa dan dosa Sempatkanlah aku bertobat Hidup di jalan-Mu Tuk penuhi kewajibanku Sebelum tutup usia Kembali pada-Mu I really wanna cry now. God, forgive me for all my sins. God, forgive me for all my wrong-doings. God, forgive me for being defiant. God, forgive me for not being a good daughter. God, forgive me for not being a good lover. God, forgive me for being so heartless. God, forgive me... I realised something. Life's too short to make enemies. Life's too short to hate anyone. Life's too short to hurt anyone. When's my turn? Only He knows. It can be now, later ... or tomorrow. I'm ready to take you with open arms. |
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Monday, October 8, 20079:27 AM
I'm deleting my blog.
Tomorrow. I still love you, Ryan. |
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7:16 AM
He makes me angry.
He makes me sad. He makes me feel like a trash at times. He's trying to find my flaws. He's trying to get me to think that it's my fault. He's always teasing me. He's always jealous. He's talking to many girls. He makes me cry. He makes me mad. He's at fault most of the times but it's always me... who will say ''I'm sorry''. But I still LOVE him. I still do. WHY? If only you know. |
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Sunday, October 7, 20071:04 PM
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Yay. Out to town with umi and kakak zai. Kakak zai bought lots and lots of make-ups. God. Umi bought for me white tube and mini tiara. wheeeeeeeeeee~ like, i wore the tiara immediately after i bought it. like, who cares? bodoh. abah and umi weren't really mad looking at my results. umi was like ''okaylah tu. tak terok sgt. [referring to math] still ader chance.'' see, umi rock. okay WHATEVER. |
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Saturday, October 6, 20074:50 AM
I got my final prelim results. I dont even take malay for prelims. Oh well, maybe they take the grade from the o level. Anyway, here ...
English Language - C5 Malay - A1 Mathematics - E8 Science - F9 Combined humanities - A2 Remarks: A responsible Class Chairperson, Siti Nur Ruzanna is a good and cooperative team player. She is a confident, serious and commited learner with a positive attitude towards her studies. Class position: 7/37 Level position: 7/37 L1R4 = 21. Part nie aku tk paham. Macam monyet. But, suprisingly, I go 41 for math! I mean, i've had always get 20+ tau. Means I still have hope to pass my math. Like, padehal prelims is the hardest exam. Okay okay. Still failed. But whatever. I got distinction for science practical exams but my theory sucks so... yeah. Imagine! My results is sooooooooooooo bad but still i got like the top ten. Merepek seh. Haha. You can imagine my class overall results mcm mane. And, dengar2, aku got chance nak dpt edusave award again. Every year, without fail. Jangan kerek ah Ruz. Haha. Main focus now is math. Actually all subjects ah. Heh heh. Oh yeah, was sad felicia wss eliminated yesterday. She's so pretty and cute. But oh well. Friend-hopper, you are sooooooooooooooooooooo STUPID and immature. Really. Haha. |
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Friday, October 5, 200711:57 AM
Teruskan langkah melupakanmu
Lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu Jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan Perlahan mimpi terasa menggangu Kucoba untuk terus menjauh Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu Ku coba untuk lanjutkan hidupku Engkau bukanlah segalaku Bukan tempat 'tuk menghentikan langkahku Usai sudah semua berlalu Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu Teruskan langkah melupakanmu Lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu Jalan pikiran mu buat ku ragu Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan ------------------------------------------------- Ku katakan dengan indah dengan terbuka hatiku hampa sepertinya luka menghampirinya Kau beri rasa yang berbeda mungkin ku salah mengartikannya yang ku rasa cinta Tetapi hatiku selalu meninggikanmu terlalu meninggikanmu selalu meninggikanmu kau hancurkan hatiku hancurkan lagi kau hancurkan hatiku 'tuk melihatmu Kau terangi jiwaku redupkan lagi Kau hancurkan hatiku 'tuk melihatmu Membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi Membuatku merasakan yang telah terjadi Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati Semua yang berhenti tanpa ku akhiri Oh, just reminiscing the nostalgic times. I still love peterpan. I love Ariel. I love Nazril Ilham. |
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5:16 AM
I'm totally dumb in uploading videos. I think I'm gonna ask my dad how to do it again. As usual, we did a kickass video again during recess. Haha. It was pretty retarded. Kathy and me did our personal retardation video during math class. Haha. I know, right.
You're a stupid, stupid _______. Familiar? Oh well... I'm calling you a pig if you ask me about this post. O my love, I love you. ![]() |
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Thursday, October 4, 20079:25 AM
I didnt go to school today. I was coughing like there's no tomorrow. Still am. It's super caustic. Feel like taking out my throat and put it in one corner. You know tekak gatal? Ya, feel like shoving my whole hand down my throat and *scratch scratch*. I know, right?
Umi cooking mee siam. Like, I have a lot of work to do. I mean, school work. There's geography and then english... and then revision. I'm tired. Really. I don't understand some people. Okay like, I dont care either but then... when they need me or something, they'll come and all. Otherwise, I'm like a wall u see. Talking to myself. O level. 15 more days. |
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Wednesday, October 3, 20075:07 AM
Had lotsa fun today despite my endless cough and rockstar voice.
Kathy, farhanna, wanie and me made a lil something. It was super fun. Erm, im not gonna post the videos at this post. It takes a stupid long time to upload the vids in blogger. Oh well, Im feeling kinda lonely. I miss him so much. Did he knows I miss him sooo much. Say, it's been a week since we talk! GAAAAAAAH!!! DIE DIE DIE. Gue cinta ama loe. I just feel like screaming this again and again. GET OUT! LEAVE! RIGHT NOW! IT'S THE END OF YOU AND ME. |
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Tuesday, October 2, 20074:29 AM
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Went to ikea yesterday night. With relatives and all. It was fun. Someone confessed something to me. oooh? Anyway, kathy, rose, wanie, farhanna and me skipped physics lesson. Decided to revise math. Heh. Oh, is it wrong for me to actually share some knowledge to like, anyone else? I mean, cut me some slack. It's a basic things that all of us mathematicians should know and have the rights to know. It's not like you're giving me math answers for O level exams. Like, ya? Like, I want all my friends to pass their exams and I dont think I want to have anything to do with the act of nonsentical or childishness or whatever. If you think I'm like you, you're totally wrong. I mean, I'm not a hypocrite. I actually dont mind teaching or learning from/to others. Life's like this. You LEARN. L-E-A-R-N. Only a FOOL refuse to learn. Say, I don't wish to BITCH about people in my blog but then again, it's my blog. So, jog on if you feel like you're gonna cry or die when reading this. I mean, okay, I'm not good at propaganda or... to brainwash people with your unwanted squabble. This feeling of hostility is affecting everyone else. I mean, yeah, as hell people are gonna fall for your rumours or shits. Like, I don't care? Haha. I don't like making rivals or hating people. Life is toooooo short for all this. Believe me, I know what I'm saying. Why walked away when I wanted to iron things out? Don't have the guts to actually spit everything out right in my face? Oh come on... I've seen so much better. I prefer settling things face to face but you walked away and what makes you think I would wanna chase after you make you sit and talk? Shouldn't it be other way round? I don't entertain nonsense. Told you. You are good in luring people into believing your junks. Hah. Go ahead. Try me. Know anyone who seems nice and all but trash anyone who gets in her way? ME. =) yeap. Yours truly. And, I'm not the kind that calls the whole clan to get to talk about small matters like this. WHATEVER. I'm going to Ain's society. You got a problem come and say it to my face. You got a problem come and say it in my face. |
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Monday, October 1, 20077:45 AM
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Went to west mall. With BBE- GEN Y. watched underdog. u guys should watch.It's really funny. anyway, you people can forget about meeting me or hanging out with me after my Os or whenever because father said this ''u'll only allowed out with friends after you've finish your education and start a career''. uh-huh. u heard me. and that will be like ... 5-6 years later. =D gah. i'm so into my blog song. i know the song is like so... 1000 years ago but whatever. I've been waiting all day here for ya babe So won't cha come and sit and talk to me And tell me how we're gonna be together always Hope you know that when it's late at night I Hold on to my pillow tight And think of how you promised me forever(I never thought that anyone) Could make me feel this way(Now that you're here boy all I want) Is just a chance to say Get Out, (leave) right now, It's the end of you and me It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone 'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time) Tell me why you're looking so confused When I'm the one who didn't know the truth How could you ever be so cold To go behind my back and call my friend Boy you must have gone and bumped your head Because you left her number on your phone(So now after all is said and done) Maybe I'm the one to blame but(To think that you could be the one) Well it didn't work out that way I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you've gotta leave Because my heart is breakin' With every word I'm sayin' I gave up everything I had On something that just wouldn't last But I refuse to cry No tears will fall from these Eyeee-eeee-eeees Ooooh, ooooh Get out Don't worry baby, I still love you. |
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