Remember I mentioned someone died? And how devastated, desperate, crazy, mad, sad, just so sad that I nearly did something I never thought I would. Remember that guy? The guy I used to love. Oh well guess what. He's a big filthy rotten hound. Big f-cking rotten hound. I swear I will hate him all my life. I dont care if anything happens, I will hate him all my life.
The reason he lied? Okay here, he said he was too embarrased to admit that after an accident his freaking nose got busted and his left or right leg limped. Wow. What a reasonable excuse. Bravo. You had me fooled. You had everyone fooled. I hate you. God, I hate you so much.
Of course some of you would say "Sedangkan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w mengampunkan umatnya..." Because I am not Nabi Muhammad. Because my heart is not as pure as his. Because I'm not as perfect as him. And because, you don't deserve any mercy.
See, I don't trust anyone anymore. And then one more guy went off. And I was like that was it. Enough. So I'm back to dream land where only Kaka, Agger and Torres exist. Lol.
But then, comes Juan Carlos Vargas. He came from the same country as Kak Shasha, the states. So far away. But the sweetest thing is, he bought a webcam for himself for me. I mean, so that we could see each other despite the distance. He's a latino. Awesome. :) And im chatting with him now.
So, to conclude, I don't forgive those who hurt my feelings. Who treated me like a doll. All the best now.
Okay. Let's proceed on. Haha. So where's my headbanging attitude or songs? Still there. Still there. But not as much. Okay, from lastime, the only arab songs I listen to was from Amr Diab. And then, when I had to retake O level and I was feeling shit, brother introduced me to some really good songs. So I started listening to Nancy Ajram, Maya Nasri, Myriam Fares, Haifa Wehbe and more...
And I'm a lady now. It's been a while since I wore my converse sneakers. I've been wearing heels. A lot. And dresses. It's the hormones. Haha.
So a few months ago I was offered to model for lorelle and haha, a summer show at the British Club. Here's the pic.

